Christmas?

Impactor returns 2.0 · Post by **Impactor returns 2.0** » Tue Dec 20, 2005 12:07 pm

Im not the only who finds this a down time am I?

No matter how much I try, no matter how much effort I put in, I always feel like im missing out on somthing, that everyone else is having a good time and im sort of on the outside looking in?
sort of feel un-connected to it all at the moment

Obfleur · Post by **Obfleur** » Tue Dec 20, 2005 12:22 pm

I have never celebrated christmas "they way it is suppose to be" - with family, friends, good food, etc.
Everytime I see a christmas movie, or a christmas card or something like that I get this feeling inside me that screams "I wanna try that! I want to sit with my family around a big ass tree, with loads of presents and lots of food and happy feelings".
But that'll never happen.
This christmas eve I'll be sitting alone in my apartment, then around seven o'clock in the evening I'll go to my sister and exchange some gifts with her, and then I'll go home again.

I see my girlfriend and all my friends running around being all happy that it's christmas.
They are putting up christmas decorations, lighting candles and what not.
They're really looking forward to the whole christmas-thingy.
But I'm not. But I sure want to

Impactor returns 2.0 · Post by **Impactor returns 2.0** » Tue Dec 20, 2005 12:30 pm

Strange isnt it - I wont sit indoors xmass eve, its an excuse to get **** faced for me (like I need any more) and xmass day ive taken to cooking now as its s omthing i really enjoy year round, but it never feels like im in, or part of that xmass 'image' if u know what I mean?

Obfleur · Post by **Obfleur** » Tue Dec 20, 2005 12:34 pm

Yeah, I know what you mean.

Eline · Post by **Eline** » Tue Dec 20, 2005 12:35 pm

I must say that I am looking forward to Christmas. This year is the first time that I've put up decorations in my home and it looks nice.

We don't do any presents, just eat a nice dinner and spend some time with the family.

All my foreign colleagues at work will have a 'traditional' Christmas with the same food as every year, lots of presents etc. That sounds nice but also a bit boring.

Things I would like to happen at Christmas are:
- snow
- maybe some small presents under the tree (something like bodylotion would be fine)
- my grandmother

It was always fun when she was there.

EDIT: the stupid thing about Christmas that it forces you to have a good time, so you are doomed to feel unhappy no matter what happens.

Impactor returns 2.0 · Post by **Impactor returns 2.0** » Tue Dec 20, 2005 1:01 pm

Eline wrote: EDIT: the stupid thing about Christmas that it forces you to have a good time, so you are doomed to feel unhappy no matter what happens.

I think this sums it up perfectly

Post by **spiderfrommars** » Tue Dec 20, 2005 1:42 pm

I'd do anything to get away from the family at Christmas!

Obfleur · Post by **Obfleur** » Tue Dec 20, 2005 1:46 pm

spiderfrommars wrote:I'd do anything to get away from the family at Christmas!

I've been living by myself since I was 15 (I am 22 now) - all my friends used to say "Man I wish I lived alone!" and I said "Man, I wish I lived with a family!"

sprunkner · Post by **sprunkner** » Tue Dec 20, 2005 3:18 pm

Wow, Ob. That's a long time alone.

My wife looks more forward to Xmas than I. I remember feeling the same way (as Impy) as a kid. (Also having an indestructable urge to wank on Christmas. Seriously. Every year.)

Excited this Xmas because my sister just had a baby, and she's the sister me wife and I are closest to, but hardly get to see. So fun to see her baby. Not excited about all the nights and graves I'm working to get in extra hours around the holiday. I'm scheduled for 40 hours in three days.

Also, being married is nice, because you can generally score a better deal than wanking.

Brendocon · Post by **Brendocon** » Tue Dec 20, 2005 3:22 pm

Used to get really narky and sullen around Christmas. Been too busy over the past few weeks, though. Got to last weekend and it was like "Oh, right... really should sort something out."

I think it's made a big diff having somebody else about at home. Conversation seldom stops long enough for me to get all deep and thinky.

Love Christmas Day, though. I get to revel in my hypocrisy as an atheist celebrating another religion's festival just because there's presents involved. Used to get really guilt tripped about it. Now I'm going the shameless route and embracing the fact that I'm scum. But I'll be happy scum.

Metal Vendetta · Post by **Metal Vendetta** » Tue Dec 20, 2005 3:58 pm

I have a great Christmas every year. What's the point of doing it if you don't celebrate?

saysadie · Post by **saysadie** » Tue Dec 20, 2005 8:27 pm

Brendocon wrote:I think it's made a big diff having somebody else about at home.

I think that's what it is for me, too. Having people around makes a big, big difference as long as it's a good balance of people. Helps that I'm away from home, too. And that they visit often enough to remind me why I'm here.

Christmas always used to annoy me. For the past three or so years I've not really enjoyed a Christmas, and to be honest there's always arguments whenever my family gets together that make me roll my eyes and go "FFS...", I always get the same stupid "You want some turkey? it's delicious." jokes from my brothers and the only thing I ever eat at dinner is potatoes and carrots...

But, when it comes down to it... they're my fam, y'know? They have their bad points but they have good. I always used to focus solely on the negative and all it ever did was make me feel like ****. Now, everything's... just... whatever. That's life. There's good there, too.

Christmas long ago lost any religious meaning for me. If it ever had any. It's always been about getting together and gifts... moreso the giving for me than the getting. I love buying gifts, and I love Christmas shopping. So that's what I tend to enjoy most.

That, and coming home. Coming home's... well, it's coming home, y'know? Doesn't matter that there's 10 people under the same roof that will want to kill each other after a couple of days and it doesn't matter that I will eventually want to leave and come back here after a few, I'll be at home. With my family. And there's something about that thought that makes me content, because despite all the arguing, fighting, disagreements and whatnot, we're actually pretty tight.

Oh, and I have a Christmas tree this year. It's a small white one with a Grim Reaper on top, black decorations, a black feather boa wrapped around it and it had blinky Halloween skeleton lights on. I've taken pictures. My friends all think I'm a freak/on crack.

Brendocon · Post by **Brendocon** » Tue Dec 20, 2005 8:33 pm

saysadie wrote:Oh, and I have a Christmas tree this year. It's a small white one with a Grim Reaper on top, black decorations, a black feather boa wrapped around it and it had blinky Halloween skeleton lights on. I've taken pictures. My friends all think I'm a freak/on crack.

Fantastic!

I've only got a foot-high green plastic thing with no decorations. And that's only because I was asked "can we have a Christmas tree?!" in the most enthusiastic tone possible when my flatmate moved in.

There. Done. We've got a tree. She wants decorations, she'll have to do that herself.

Bouncelot · Post by **Bouncelot** » Tue Dec 20, 2005 8:36 pm

I love Christmas. Of course, as a Christian, I love the religious side, and I really enjoy visiting my family (a 3 hour trip each way means it only happens a few times a year, and I get on with them really well). But I can see how it can be a depressing time of year when you don't have people you get on with to share it with.

saysadie · Post by **saysadie** » Wed Dec 21, 2005 8:29 am

Brendocon wrote:
I've only got a foot-high green plastic thing with no decorations. And that's only because I was asked "can we have a Christmas tree?!" in the most enthusiastic tone possible when my flatmate moved in.

There. Done. We've got a tree. She wants decorations, she'll have to do that herself.

Well, she can't complain, she's got her tree!

Fantastic!

Innit though? I'm tickled with it. My dad bought it for me when he was visiting last. Mentioned offhand that I was planning on finding me a little white three to decorate when he was visiting and he just... went out and bought one for me at a garage sale. Was cool.

'Course, he had no idea what I was going to do to it.

Everyone's like "That's not Christmas!" and I'm like "It is at my place!"... it was going to have a "skirt" of coal, but concerns about dust/soot was raised, so that was scrapped.

I'll probably post the pics in here when I get the film developed. If anyone gives a crap, anyway. It's not that impressive, I'm just that tickled with it.

One day, I'm gonna have a full-size one.