I want to give up and go back.

saysadie · Post by **saysadie** » Fri Jul 15, 2005 11:46 pm

Someone convince me not, to, please.

Alright, here's the sitch. I moved from the area I grew up in about a month ago to a city I sort-of know... Quit my job there and just up and moved, mainly because one of my brothers needed a roomate.

Am sharing an apartment with said brother right now. In about a month a cousin of ours will also be moving in and everything will be split three ways.

I had a job, but I gave it up because it was a ******* joke. 7.30/hr and not worth the hassle. In the week that I worked it, there were three schedule changes which eventually gave me 8 days straight of work (at juuust under 40 hours, natch) and a 11 pm closing shift followed the next day by a 7 am opening shift.

I quit that without giving notice so they didn't pay me for it. Despite the fact that it was crap, I wish I hadn't because it was still money coming in...

The cycle now goes thusly: I wake up, spend hours looking for a job both online and in the paper, apply to the likely sounding ones and/or go out with resumes and spend the day handing those out/filling out apps.

This has been my life for roughly the past week and a half. [Longer actually, I've been here since the 10th of june...] The only interview I've gotten from this since I quit my last job I had to share with my brother. He applied for the same job, despite already having one. Because it paid better than the one he has. Needless to say, that did not go well. I'm teetering in between being annoyed by his lack of sense and trying not to be... but it probably wasn't my sort of job anyway. I guess.

... I'm beginning to think that this wasn't worth it. I'm going nuts here, when I'm not out looking I'm sitting here looking online/waiting on a call I don't think will ever come, and I don't think I can stand it anymore. I'm terribly homesick, I miss my old job and the friends I made while I was there...

I'm trying to keep a positive outlook, I'm trying to keep from getting frustrated but it's difficult when you've got bills piling up and **** like that.

I'm completely listless and apathetic at the moment. It's like "[composite word including 'f*ck'] all this ****"... I don't want to look at another ad, I don't want to see another job that sounds good and pays well knowing that I'm not at all qualified for it...

But I'm going to anyway. Because there's nothing else I can do. Yippeeeee...!

Post by **Denyer** » Sat Jul 16, 2005 12:25 am

saysadie wrote:Someone convince me not, to, please.

Set yourself a cut-off point, if you can.

What does your brother do, and are there likely to be any openings he could put in a word for you about / get hold of applications for ahead of them being advertised?

May be worth chasing up a few applications, without being pushy towards the places.

Any temping agencies that do block booking of stuff such as data entry, office work?

Hugs and apologies.

saysadie · Post by **saysadie** » Sat Jul 16, 2005 1:40 am

Denyer wrote: What does your brother do, and are there likely to be any openings he could put in a word for you about / get hold of applications for ahead of them being advertised?

He works at a call centre. And nope... was one of the first places I applied actually. Nothing there.

Denyer wrote:May be worth chasing up a few applications, without being pushy towards the places.

Have done. Nothing so far so I'll probably be reapplying to most of them soon enough.

Denyer wrote:Any temping agencies that do block booking of stuff such as data entry, office work?

Never really thought of temp. work... I'll have a look, thanks D.

Post by **Denyer** » Sat Jul 16, 2005 1:50 am

Even if they could get a couple of weeks post or similar, it could buy some time to look further or wait on interviews. Agencies tend to be fairly flexible about people working to fit around around other dates.

Eline · Post by **Eline** » Sat Jul 16, 2005 11:18 am

Temping is a good thing to do in between. And usually, if you work 3 weeks, you can afford not working for 2 weeks or so. It may even get you a regular job, which is what happened to me. I started out at my job through an agency, and after 4 months they gave me a permanent contract.

Looking for a job is not fun. It took me almast a year after my graduation to get the job I have now. At times I was pretty unhappy and didn't want to do anything. And the worst is that you have to go on, even though you don't want to.

Decide for yourself if you'd rather have no job and no money or a job you don't like and a bit of money.

Hope this makes sense, I'm a bit tired now.

*hug*

Post by **Best First** » Sat Jul 16, 2005 12:41 pm

Dude

i'm nor sure i'm in quite the right headset to dispense advice at the moment... so i guess all i've got to say is that from what i have seen over the years you have more than got what it takes to get through this and i think you are going to be fine.

Thoughts are with you. take care.

saysadie · Post by **saysadie** » Sat Jul 16, 2005 7:44 pm

I've got little choice but to get through it, really.

Thanks you guys. I feel like ***** daily but it'll work out.

Autobloke · Post by **Autobloke** » Sun Jul 17, 2005 10:06 pm

Just remember what I always think of when I'm having a crappy time: Time doesn't stand still - you won't be stuck in that situation forever and something will always happen. From the sounds of it, things can't get much worse for you, so they HAVE to get better.

Well, it helps ME through the despair.

saysadie · Post by **saysadie** » Mon Jul 18, 2005 12:45 am

I like that, it's a good way to think. Thanks.

I'm better today. Got a much-needed break... park, sun, fun, frisbee. Will still have the ads to go through on the morrow (yet again) and we still have a few money worries but I've got a temporary recharge.

Hugs, all. You rock.

Post by **spiderfrommars** » Mon Jul 18, 2005 9:28 am

Its only been a couple of weeks, hopefully something will come up soon - I think you have to accept these things can take time. Try not to get too down about it - perhaps inbetween the job hunting occupy your time with things that make you happy (and hopefully don't cost anything).

I hope things work out for you. I'm soon to be in a similar situation, I hope I can listen to my own advice.

Take care Sadie.

saysadie · Post by **saysadie** » Tue Jul 19, 2005 12:45 am

Thanks Spidey.

I'd be more prone to/comfortable with accepting that these things take time if we had enough money to cover everything. As it is we're lucky we'll be able to make rent this month. Only half the bills are getting paid and we currently have nothing for groceries.

Today's just been the world's most amazing headache. I think things have been worked out to some satisfaction though.

I definitely need to do something akin to what was done this weekend once in awhile. Worrying about everything constantly will slowly drive me insane.